if the sky goes missing, where does that leave the star?

I don't write anymore. At all. It hurts my heart, leaves it aching like there is a huge hole in my chest. It leaves me struggling to breathe, struggling to see what's left.

Since Madi left, it's hard to swallow. In the words of William Beckett, the world around me is like a dark room, and I have a candle. Madi was the hand that led me to the lightswitch. Now, without her, I force myself to see only the area I can see with my candle. Because I'm afraid to see the whole world without her by my side.

I cling to Haley a lot now. Because she's equally important as Madi to me. When one of them is gone, half of me is too.

In the last twenty-one days, I've struggled to figure out what happens when you give two people half of your heart each, and one of them leaves. That leaves you with half of a heart, right? Well what happens if the other person leaves too?

And to be honest, I'm too scared to find out.