it's been forever since i've posted anything remotely interesting about my so-called life, so here goes. A long, overdue rambling about the last month of my life.
First of all, when I think about the last few months, the first thing that comes to mind is how Tyler and I broke up. Well yeah, we did. And it was about time too. I can't honestly say why I stayed with him for so long. Maybe it was because I liked the idea of having a boyfriend, while in reality, it wasn't all that fantastic. I realized that I was unhappy and I needed to change something, and the first thing that came to mind was getting him out. At least in the romantic kind of way (ha, like we were ever romantic at all). So I dumped him. And then I asked Eric out because, well, I like him. I like him alot and I've liked him for a long time and it's probably about time I own up to that.
Eric and I work together in a million ways that Tyler and I never did and never would. For one, I feel the intense need to talk to him everyday, where with Tyler I could go weeks without talking to him or even noticing his absence from my life. Or even caring. With Eric I enjoy talking to him every day and I notice when he's not around. I care. I need to stop comparing Eric and Tyler because I don't want my whole relationship with him to be a comparison.
Another relationship I have that has grown over this past month or so is my relationship with Sara. I've opened up to her in ways that I've never felt possible with another human being, and she has proved her impact in my life. She's the person I text when I can feel my life falling apart and she's the first one to rush over to help pick up the pieces. Haley is the same way, but Sara does it differently. Sometimes Sara just being in the room with me is enough to calm and comfort me. I enjoy seeing and talking to her everyday and I care that she's not around, which is more than I can say about most people I surround myself with.
This has turned into a big sap fest and I want to save that for tomorrow night when I recap the whole 2007 thing. For now, so long.
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you and eric =adorableness.
ReplyDeleteme=being the friend that's there but can't really be there unless the united states folded itself and made missouri and north carolina into a state OR we became neighbors or something.
:)