On Friendship:

I've noticed that when it comes to friends, I tend to make bad choices. I cling to people that hurt me instead of the people that are good for me. I make myself depend on people that consistently put me down, instead of the people that build me up. And I'm trying to change that.

I've also noticed that when I think about why I'm friends with someone, I very rarely think of present events. I remember when times were the best, instead of what they're like now. With Alexa, I always thought of the summer before Junior year, when we'd spend every day just me, her, and Sara. With Ruth, I think about 7th grade and the summer before 8th grade. With Madi, I think about when we started to write Eternity Will Never Be Enough together.

The thing is, that while those times were good and they were a great basis of a friendship, that's not what I should be focused on. I should be focused on the now, why they're my friend now. And with certain friends, I've realized that what used to be isn't good enough anymore.

But I've also noticed that with Jessica, I don't think like that. Sure, last year and this summer were one of the best of my life, but she didn't just make me happy then. She continues to make me happy every day. Every day, she's there for me and builds me up. There are no expectations in this friendship. I don't have to write a certain way, or do drugs, or listen to a certain type of music to be her friend. I just am.

And that's what I like right now.