honestly, nothing can describe the overwhelming feeling of sadness i got last night (this morning?) when sara and alexa pulled out of my driveway at 12:05 am. We stood in the driveway for at least 5 minutes just talking about summer. they were in my room for about two hours and i can't help but think that it's the last time the three of us will be in the same room until school starts. Plus it doesn't help that Sara got grounded for being an hour and a half past curfew, oops.
This summer has been a wonderful time, no matter how much i've complained about being bored, or wanting school to start. The closer it gets, the more terrified I am. I've gotten too used to going to bed at three in the morning, waking up to a phone call from haley at nine or ten. Getting to stay up late, be with my friends whenever I want. All these things I've been doing for three months and now that's going away. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself once school starts. I'm not letting my friends fall through the cracks.
Somehow, I'm going to manage having a job, school, and friends. I'll make sure they get the love they deserve (Sara and Alexa will be the easy ones, texting is allowed after 10, i'm positive.) but Haley however, she's going to be the difficult one. She can't text when she's at her dad's, and she has to go to bed at 9:30 for me.
I'll figure this out. I have to. I have to keep up or I'll never make it through the school year.
[PS Sara I wrote something similar to this in Tired Boys but you'll get to read that whenever I'm ready to give the notebook back up. I loved your elephant drawing by the way, even though I totally thought it was a peen. haha. i love you and i'll see you soon.]
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OUR FRIENDSHIP WON'T FALL APART.
ReplyDeleteIT WON'T. IT WON'T. IT WON'T. IT WON'T.
I love youuuu. bee eff eff's duh
oh and in your labels i first though that one said SANTIY
ReplyDeletebut no my eyes deceived me.
i need sleep. please call or text.
i know how you feel, i felt like that when i was leaving your house and it didn't help with everything else that was going on today adn that had happened today
ReplyDeleteit sucks that we don't have any classes together, but once privelage time starts, we shall hang out at school
my grounding won't be so bad since school is starting, and i'm sure i can find rides so we can hang out, WE WILL HANG OUT DURING SCHOOL NO MATTER WHAT, it will be easier once i get a car so i won't have to worry about WHEN we can hang because of sharing the jeep
it sucks, i wish i could text you and lexa, my mom says that the phone might be here by tomorrow by 4, LET'S HOPE IT GETS HERE, if not then it'll be here friday, i'm already going insane without it
yes, i did already read a bit of it, but i don't mind reading some of it again, lol and once you said that i laughed and it reminded me off teh conversation, sadly it seems that i'll never forget it
and WE STILL HAVE WORK, we'll still see each other quite a bit outside of school
i have a bad/weird feeling that i'm going to need you and lexa to help me stay sane (if i am sane that is) becasue i think this is going to be the toughest year with everything
thanks for letting me spend my last night of summer at your house, i don't count tonight because i had to spend it with my mom and brother, and thanks for letting me hang out at your house til about 5, i just realized that i had spent about 34 hours hanging out with you, it was an awesome way to end summer, if only lexa could've hung out with us, it would've been even better, but i had an awesome time, thanks for putting up with me that long
i love you bud
*would you believe me if i said i didn't need you?*